Chamber of Smoke

I need my drug,
I need my medicine
More than I need you.
I need my pill,
I need my smoke -
More and more and more - till I'll choke.

I've had it once,
I've had it twice,
Then I've had it for fourteen times
More than I need you,
More than I can contain\Inhale, inhale, it will ease away the pain.

I thought I need it for you
So you would love me more -
But I'm trapped, in a chamber of smoke
You've become my excuse,
I can sadly only abuse.
I'm killing myself, and that's what I choose,
Inhale, inhale - till you lose.

5.2.12