Family events can drive you insane. Literally. All this mental preparation toward what may or may not come, what your family might or might not say - can really make you lose it. Flashbacks, depression and general sadness. No wonder the suicide rates in the holidays and after them peak. Some are lonely in the holidays, while others wish they would have been, some are nostalgic and emotional and some are just overwhelmed by thoughts. Most are nervous, some are sad in a way.
This year I was lonely at first, and was really looking forward to meeting with my family, but the thought of this holiday also made me sad that I'll be spending it with my family and not with my ex. And then I remembered this movie that I saw a couple of months ago - you have to do your best, and even more, because if you do, if you really try to be happy and make whatever it is that makes you feel good - you got a shot at a silver lining...
So.. the following pics are from passover eve - which turned out to be quite fun. Getting back home alone was harder - holidays overwhelm me with thoughts...
btw - this Kiddush cup is the one I bought my parents at London :)
