A broken heart

Oh Daniel! If I could, I would tear out my heart strings and give them to you for safekeeping.
For only your hands can heal the pain, for only your words, your eyes will remedy my tears.
A thousand nights and a thousand mornings I'll mourn your loss, and at days I'll wonder from house to house, hoping for some happiness to blunt my grief.
My Daniel, Daniel.
Thy kisses will be my crown, the crown of darkness, which I'll carry all my life, as a sign of Cain for my mistake, the mistake of saying goodbye to the love of my life.
My precious, my dear, my righteous love, I yearn to your warmth, to your lips, to your loving gaze.
Will I ever love another as I have loved you? Will I ever be as happy and smile as I have smiled with you? Will I ever be loved as you've loved me?
Oh, a fake smile, O bloody ransom for freedom. Be careful what you wish for, child, or it will return against you as a double-edged sword.
Stubborn as a mule, I carried the flag of the sovereignity , while my heart yearned for the dictatorship of love, and here I am on a Sunday night - lost.
Independent and lonely, longing for any affection, when in fact, Daniel -
Longing for you, my love.

24.3.13
Shakespeare wannabe..

Summer Nights

"Summer nights, they are so empty,
Summer dreams, they are so vain.
You could get hopes of an ending,
but our nights - refuse to go away.

I don't know how to live in the daylight.
The darkness calls: 'bury your soul with me',
I run, I fall, but never wake-up.
I twist, and I turn, but the long arm of the night -
won't let go..."

I've changed in the 6 years since I wrote this poem. I now let myself enjoy things, I let myself be happy. Though it doesn't come without a struggle, I feel warm inside more and more often, my laugh is purer this days, and I know now what love really is for the first time. And I even think I'm worth it...
enjoy the sunny pics and have a great spring...