Alice

My sister is beautiful. One of the most beautiful people I've ever met on the inside and on the outside. And I'm not objective here, eh? I should really hate here and she should feel the same about me. We really hurt each other over the years. But somehow - I still believe and, well, actually know, that she's such a beautiful person. I'm not saying she's the opposite of me and I'm not saying the contrary. I'm just pointing out a fact.

A week ago I was able to take some photos of her as we were going home from our grandparents. It took some persuasion, but eventually I was able to take them. And man...... I told you she's pretty on the outside as well :).

Maturity and Akko - part 2

I choose this post to share something that happened this week. Yesterday at a barbecue at work I got honored as an "Outstanding Employee". It really was one of the better moments I've experienced this past summer. Seriously.

It wasn't one of those out-of-this-life-transcendental experiences or not even fireworks-in-the-background kind of thing. It was so special because this gesture was an affirmation for me that I can go out to the world all by myself - and do well. That all the hard work I've put into my job and that I always put in everything that I do - is noticed and appreciated. But most importantly - that after years of ambition and wanting to be the best so that my parents would love me, at last I felt that this moment was for myself, not for them. I was proud of myself - and that's it. And that's why it was such a life-changing moment - because it showed me how much I've matured during this summer, independized and really gone through a process (that's still continuing).

So, in honor of that moment, here is the 2nd part of pics from my trip recently to Akko. This joy I felt there is suitable to this self-discovery - I am an Individual.

Theater and a Trip - Part 1

A friend of my suggested last week spontaneously that we'll go to a theater festival on Sunday. The festival is held in Akko, an ancient Israeli city up north, where Jews and arabs have lived together for centuries. It's a magnificent place, and I adore it, so you can imagine my excitement in light of her suggestion.

So we did that. 8 hours on the bus for 5 hours of joy in this harbor city. But most of all I think I joined my friend because I love theater so much. My friend directed me in her indie play last year and ever since that, this fire toward acting that has died for a while after graduating from school and theater class, was reignited. I know that it's unlikely that in this country I'll find a stable job as an actress. Or at least I don't believe in myself enough to pursue that seriously at the time, but if I could combine that with my "regular" life as I successfully did last year - that would really be a dream coming true...

I don't ever wanna let go of this feeling - this adrenalin rush right before the curtain opens up - it's mind blowing. Just like these pastoral landscapes from Akko. So enjoy.

Eend of part 1.

L.O.V.E.

Have you seen "500 Days of Summer"? I watched it again a couple of days ago with two of my friends, and both of them concluded the movie as "well built and directed, but we didn't get the message". I've been thinking about it for the last few days and I think I've reached a conclusion than will keep both my friends unsatisfied - you choose what to take from this movie.
Like all great movies such as Requiem for a Dream, Donnie Darko & even Moulin Rouge that end with suffering, misery and death - one can choose what to take from them. Not like all those romantic comedies that pretend to know what life and love is about. We choose what to make of life, we choose what to learn from a movie, and we choose what is love an compassion for us. It doesn't have to be the Hollywood ditsy-careless-naive love. It can be dependant-harsh-hopeful-yet-realistic love. I need to believe in this kind of love in order to remain sane.

It's hard for me to love since everyone I've ever loved has let me down. I fall in love fast but with much too high expectations and that's why I'm let down so often. I believe in love with all my heart but in the wrong kind of love, the childish one, and that's why I keep hurting myself.
I once wrote a song once about my inability to hold on to what's healthy to me, and then, because I only blame myself, be consumed with this terrible and morbid feeling of emptiness. It was two years ago. Now I need to grow up and finally understand that I'm in charge of my life and I can choose a different kind of love to believe in: I choose to look at the bright side and not expect too much of myself and of others, to always believe in the good side of men, to know that there are obstacles, and realise that there may not be a happy ending, but one can only grow from rock-bottom, and although it's scary down there - the feeling of love is worth it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oxW99gE_lRI

Although I'm not ashamed of her, I'm not that girl anymore.

I Can Try

Fix You/ Coldplay
When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you


Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JI-o25K6B-E&ob=av2e



 No one can fix anything. We can only try to fix ourselves. And that's what I'm gonna do.

first photography experience

Background images, just to give the urban vibe...

70's-ish start. I wanted to capture this very common moment, and make it feel like everyone or anyone can be in this situation. Like this can be everyman...

I did the styling and accessorizing with personal pieces and my own clothes. 

 

I like to shoot backs, and it really fit perfectly for this photoshoot because this angle, more than anything, gives the feeling of "everyman"...

My favorite picture. My style. My vision. My product. What a great photoshoot it was, and the model, Nelly, helped me so much in my first experience as a photographer. Hopefully I'll have many more.